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I ship them!
I ship Turtle Dove and Batman. Sometimes, when they talk to each other about movies or songs or the things they know so well, I stare at them and scream "JUST MARRY EACH OTHER ALREADY!" of course inside of my mind. If I actually did scream I don't think they'd be with me anymore. But how cute are they! I mean seriously! They're so alike and synchronized. I honestly think they should be a couple. But who am I kidding. T doesn't like him that way and I don't know what goes inside of B's mind. Could be that he likes her but gave up on her. Maybe he thought being friends with her would be the easiest way out and he would get hurt lesser that way....I DON'T KNOW I JUST WANT THEM TO BE TOGETHER FOR ETERNITY IF ETERNITY LASTED BECAUSE THEY ARE SO DAMN CUTE!SO singer guy. He looks weird now. I liked his beard. Now that his beard is gone, I feel like his manliness kinda shrank. Why did he have to shave? WHY.
But he called me cute today. That was like really nice to hear. NO. You know what? I am not that easy to please. NOPE. I am not gonna crumble. I have a personality. I can't just let man be fooling with my emotions. I can't let him know, he has sort of power over me. NOPE. I am in charge. Such calling sweet things won't change anything. Won't make me fall for him again. NOOOO.

But I was called cute today. He thinks I am cute. I mean...That's a bit flattering but NO. NOPE. I gotta be strong. BOLD. He likes Makeup Girl. He is waiting to ask her out. I am out of the picture so I shouldn't let this nontrivial compliments fool me into thinking I love him. I don't. He is just someone I admire. Yeah. Now that his beard gone, it should be easy for me to have no such feelings. it should!

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