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Now, I consider myself to be a fully committed person. Like when I am starting to watch a TV show, I don't get to another TV show, until, and only until I finish up all the seasons. Okay, So I was watching Scrubs all this time up until T told me to watch The Vampire Diaries, so I kind of watched The Vampire Diaries for a few days, only to keep her word, and just after like completing one season of it I felt like I was cheating. I felt like I have to get back to Scrubs again, I just can't be such a hoe. So I stopped watching TVD, and now I am fully hooked up with Scrubs, up until again I found myself watching Inside Amy Schumer last night, it was just an honest mistake, I was surfing through youtube, watched some scenes and then before I knew it, I watched 3 episodes of season 1 on putlocker. And I already feel like I have cheated on Scrubs, yet Again. GOD this is awful.

It also happens to me when I start a book and get hooked up by another book and then I get confused on which one to finish first. The one I got interested at first or the one I got distracted by midway. That is why it took me like months and months to complete The Alchemist. But the other night, I started Sophie Kinsella's Can You Keep a Secret and didn't sleep until I completed it. You can say, I pulled an all-nighter. You see, I am getting myself back on track.

And I ain't watching any shows until I finish Scrubs this time. I mean, I plan to watch The Breaking Bad, and The Blacklist is on my watch list, I am intrigued but this time, no I can't let myself drown in guilt sea again.

Gosh, tell me I am not crazy. Tell me, I am acting like a sane person. I am wide awake since last night, watching Scrubs season 6 and 3 more seasons to go...I mean my neck is hurting pretty badly, I should crash the bed, but I am so committed. 

WHO AM I KIDDING? I AM A CRAZY PERSON.




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  1. AnonymousDecember 28, 2016 at 2:58 AM

    Here is a movie recommendation: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2b69qrWvu4g

    Best Bengali movie I have watched over the past few years.

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    1. EverlyDecember 29, 2016 at 1:02 PM

      Hey :) watched that movie last night, thanks for your recommendation.It was nice.

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  2. AnonymousJanuary 1, 2017 at 12:48 AM

    Thanks for watching. :-) I liked the songs very much.

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