Dear Blog.
Things changed between me and Turtle Dove...I don't know about her, at least I feel it.
And fortunately it's a positive change. I came to like her :) She came to visit my niece at my house, we spent time together, we talked, opened up and now I feel like, she could be the person I can be myself with. Had misjudged her few months back. Had doubts in our friendship, now it is clear. She is actually cool.
Common grounds. We are crushed on the same guy. This sucks but it's kind of okay since none of us are getting him...Although I sometimes feel if SG mentally connects with anybody in our group, it is her. She covers up her liking for him pretty well. Unlike me.
But it is kind of nice. Having someone I can open up to. Be myself again. I missed that since Ankan and Ann.
My finals are over. I have got A- on one of my course and B+ on another one. So far, it is bearable. The exams I fucked up had not yet been revealed so the tension is on. I promised myself what I promise every semester- Do well the next. Cause there's nothing I can do now, really. Except praying for miracle, extra marks and grades changing.
I am not sure if it is because of Sumo getting apart from T that made T get close with me. Whatever the reason is, I don't wanna overthink it. Because to survive uni I need someone by my side. And T was always there since the first semester, looking out from me, Even saved me from bullies. SO.
I started reading a book. One Indian Girl by Chetan Bhagat. Started The Vampire Diaries. Also watching Scrubs.Life is relaxed now. I realized how fast this semester has gone, and how fast it is going to destroy my cgpa.
This year. So much change has come to my life. I have encountered people I never thought I would encounter or even have a single word with.
I like Batman. He remembers every freaking detail. He is sooo cool. Very lucky to have him as friend. What is so bizarre that he can make anything sound sarcastic. He has problems with his dad. Kind of isolated from his parents and brother. Yet he never complains. He is funny without trying hard, cool without trying. I like this sort of person. I never felt sad or hopeless or like everything in my life is falling apart around him. He has that much power over my mood lately.
Lastly, let's talk about SG. He is getting better. I know, there's still a long way to go- to completely move on, take in another person and replace her, but I am happy that he has got better now. He smiles, bullies people, be the classic self that he is. And it is enough. I just want him to participate in life...Talk and let go of his anger/silent pain. And congrats to him, he did it!
I heard, he's going on two trips later this month. First one with friends, second one, alone at the beach. Good for him.
Okay I feel like I can demonstrate on other people's lives more than my own. That's because nothing's really happening with my life particularly and I don't wanna write about my academic mess, that's all there is. Don't have a love life so. Made some friends so just got on with it.
Okay. Enough for today. Peace out.
Things changed between me and Turtle Dove...I don't know about her, at least I feel it.
And fortunately it's a positive change. I came to like her :) She came to visit my niece at my house, we spent time together, we talked, opened up and now I feel like, she could be the person I can be myself with. Had misjudged her few months back. Had doubts in our friendship, now it is clear. She is actually cool.
Common grounds. We are crushed on the same guy. This sucks but it's kind of okay since none of us are getting him...Although I sometimes feel if SG mentally connects with anybody in our group, it is her. She covers up her liking for him pretty well. Unlike me.
But it is kind of nice. Having someone I can open up to. Be myself again. I missed that since Ankan and Ann.
My finals are over. I have got A- on one of my course and B+ on another one. So far, it is bearable. The exams I fucked up had not yet been revealed so the tension is on. I promised myself what I promise every semester- Do well the next. Cause there's nothing I can do now, really. Except praying for miracle, extra marks and grades changing.
I am not sure if it is because of Sumo getting apart from T that made T get close with me. Whatever the reason is, I don't wanna overthink it. Because to survive uni I need someone by my side. And T was always there since the first semester, looking out from me, Even saved me from bullies. SO.
I started reading a book. One Indian Girl by Chetan Bhagat. Started The Vampire Diaries. Also watching Scrubs.Life is relaxed now. I realized how fast this semester has gone, and how fast it is going to destroy my cgpa.
This year. So much change has come to my life. I have encountered people I never thought I would encounter or even have a single word with.
I like Batman. He remembers every freaking detail. He is sooo cool. Very lucky to have him as friend. What is so bizarre that he can make anything sound sarcastic. He has problems with his dad. Kind of isolated from his parents and brother. Yet he never complains. He is funny without trying hard, cool without trying. I like this sort of person. I never felt sad or hopeless or like everything in my life is falling apart around him. He has that much power over my mood lately.
Lastly, let's talk about SG. He is getting better. I know, there's still a long way to go- to completely move on, take in another person and replace her, but I am happy that he has got better now. He smiles, bullies people, be the classic self that he is. And it is enough. I just want him to participate in life...Talk and let go of his anger/silent pain. And congrats to him, he did it!
I heard, he's going on two trips later this month. First one with friends, second one, alone at the beach. Good for him.
Okay I feel like I can demonstrate on other people's lives more than my own. That's because nothing's really happening with my life particularly and I don't wanna write about my academic mess, that's all there is. Don't have a love life so. Made some friends so just got on with it.
Okay. Enough for today. Peace out.
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