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I had cut my hair short again. At first I didn't want to but then I thought I should make a new start. Then it got me thinking, in just one month I will make a start as a university student. And it stressed me out...
Like these days movies don't suffice. I just don't feel like I deserve some entertainment you know and even if I did what could I possibly do in just a month? My grandma interferes every occasion in my life right now,just everything. I don't get to do anything fun, whenever I am about to do something she's gonna have a say in that. It sucks I know. I am my own person and I like to do things my way but she has to give a say how her son and daughters are legends and all because of how she raised them...OK I'm whining again..this is no good but can you blame me? After 6 stressful months I just wanted to have some control over my life and some peace. With her being here, I find no peace ,no fun only bossiness and bitchiness and she's a huge fault finder!!


I'm not at all satisfied with my life I have to improve a lot, deal with the real world. And I'm scared. You know what they say, it's okay to be scared , being scared means you're about to do something really,really brave. I have to be the brave girl in my family.

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