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midnight philosophy

There is no special treatment for feelings that have been hurt once. Here's a twist. It hurts more when the person is someone you love and care. If you didn't care, this wouldn't hurt that much and you wouldn't remember the pain.
I believe, love can cover multiple of sins. You love somebody, doesn't mean you have to like everything about'em. In fact, there's gonna be things you would hate, but that doesn't mean you love'em less. And that's okay. We have incredibly different minds, cause each of us are individual souls. There's gonna be a lot of differences, a lot at stake, a lot to compromise, a lot to be sacrificed for. And even after that you can't leave, you stay for the person you love you just stay, happily because suddenly it's become so difficult to imagine your life without'em.That's how powerful love can be. It can cease your conscience without changing you.

When I hate about something in a person, I keep it to myself, I don't say it because I don't wanna hurt anybody plus I'm not that straight forward. As you can see. I am making this super indirect because I don't want that particular person to read it and get hurt. If you don't have something nicer to say, better keep it a secret, better not to say it out loud. That's what  I believe in. That's why I get hurt by the people who are so straight upfront. That's why I don't get along with people who have this type of personality. Another thing: I like honesty tho. In fact I admire it with all my heart. There's nothing more attractive than honesty. But I prefer honesty topped with kindness.( Lol I made it sound like a fruit salad.) I know these two rare qualities are always on demand in human world.
Self ego is a turn off for me, I don't know why I hate it so much when people have this sky high ego, that always like radiating..,To be clear by ego, I didn't mean narcissism, these two are different. I don't even get why some people make narcissism sound so bad! I mean yeah at some point when it's excess it's a personality disorder but if it's just healthy self-love, there's nothing wrong with it.

Pretty faces are a turn on, unless they have an ugly heart, and unless they're dumb. I have met people that inherit both. First they're like "Wow" so nice to watch. But when I get deep, I get to the fatal error of  their so called pretty faces. And then they don't seem as beautiful as they looked before. The beauty gets lost within. There's this other kind of people that I met, might not have a beautiful smile. or a nice set of teeth or pretty eyes but have something inside them that no beauty can trade. Despite their flaws they seem vaguely attractive. I can't keep my heart and eyes off them.

Negative minded people are like black holes. Seriously. They sink in any kinds of aspects you have inside of you, leaving you completely blunt. I think negative energies are more powerful, intense and more influential in a way. It could destroy things. And what destroys it? Positive energy. It's like Tic-Tac-Toe. One with most x's or o's wins.

As a woman, I always feel kind of pampered about you know certain kind of stuffs. And as I grow. I tend to learn new and exciting things about people and about opposite sex. I know I have already mentioned in an earlier post that Men aren't any mystery. It's true I feel. Really, men aren't as interesting as us. They're like meh. That's what makes us, women, so interesting and crazy. We can turn into anything. We have mystery in each of us, so much in so many ways. Men are like, a showcase, they like to show off, and that's the only thing they do mostly. Not saying that it's a bad thing but sometimes though it can be annoying. But some men, when their finest attitudes are on show, I love it. I admire it. Even fall for it.

Can't believe I am still awake! HSC is at stake right now, seriously. I have to get over this insomnia, have to,. Major concern of my dad, I can't be owl every night.

















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