I'm turning 19 today. Not just me, my brother too. Yes I have a twin. There's still no cure for common birthday.
Today's weather is super duper fit for getting cozy in bed for a full night sleep. But what the hell. I can't sleep, besides I have to study for UGH exam. WHY GOD WHY? WHY ON MY BIRTHDAY?
But I decided today, I mean from tonight to the end of the day, I'm gonna do what makes my soul happy. If I want to sleep I'm gonna sleep. If I wanna dance like a fool, oh hell I sure will. Life is too short not to celebrate.
It never mattered, never actually, when someone forgot to wish me. But I don't know why it so mattered today, at this moment when I turned nineteen and my sis isn't here and didn't call me at 12. I feel like today is such different and of so many's to come. But of first of eighteen years that my sis isn't here with me. And it's okay. It's a part of growing up. It's a part of how the world really is. People come and go, in and out of your life, you just have to accept the way it is. You're not getting any younger anyway.
Today, I have a lot to thank for. I mean, first up- THANK GOD I wasn't born on April Fools. Think people would prank me on my birthday, how cruel that'd be .Really. Not to mention this is the last stage of my teen years so I can't be thankful enough that I have survived it halfway now. A year after I will no more be a teen so CONGRATS to ME.
future note:
Two years from now I wanna see myself as a successful, grown up woman who's sure of herself and who still have midnight sugar cravings. Who still doesn't know how to act her age. Who's still stubborn, hyper, sentimental and flawed. Accomplishments: I wanna see myself get admitted to public university. And perhaps a less insecure, less scared of cockroach, spiders and lizards. Not that I will be ever in a lifetime. I hope to see myself living my dream. Two years from now.
Today's weather is super duper fit for getting cozy in bed for a full night sleep. But what the hell. I can't sleep, besides I have to study for UGH exam. WHY GOD WHY? WHY ON MY BIRTHDAY?
But I decided today, I mean from tonight to the end of the day, I'm gonna do what makes my soul happy. If I want to sleep I'm gonna sleep. If I wanna dance like a fool, oh hell I sure will. Life is too short not to celebrate.
It never mattered, never actually, when someone forgot to wish me. But I don't know why it so mattered today, at this moment when I turned nineteen and my sis isn't here and didn't call me at 12. I feel like today is such different and of so many's to come. But of first of eighteen years that my sis isn't here with me. And it's okay. It's a part of growing up. It's a part of how the world really is. People come and go, in and out of your life, you just have to accept the way it is. You're not getting any younger anyway.
Today, I have a lot to thank for. I mean, first up- THANK GOD I wasn't born on April Fools. Think people would prank me on my birthday, how cruel that'd be .Really. Not to mention this is the last stage of my teen years so I can't be thankful enough that I have survived it halfway now. A year after I will no more be a teen so CONGRATS to ME.
future note:
Two years from now I wanna see myself as a successful, grown up woman who's sure of herself and who still have midnight sugar cravings. Who still doesn't know how to act her age. Who's still stubborn, hyper, sentimental and flawed. Accomplishments: I wanna see myself get admitted to public university. And perhaps a less insecure, less scared of cockroach, spiders and lizards. Not that I will be ever in a lifetime. I hope to see myself living my dream. Two years from now.
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