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just pray.

I've been aware. 
Yes. I know! Okay.
It was 7.5 on richer scale.
Do I feel sorry for Nepal? Yeah. I do. But I don't see the need to update it as my status- Nepal, I'm sorry. hashtag Pray For Nepal.

First off, I don't believe in words, Hash tags. If you feel enough sorry for Nepal and all it's people then stop your fingertips from updating it as your status on facebook and twitter. Go watch CNN or BBC and learn how to help them or donate or just do your work. The ultimate thing that I learned about life is that- it goes on. As long as we're alive nothing will stop us from living and doing our jobs. Not even the people from Nepal that died via earth-quake today.

I don't take this things too seriously, people are dying everyday. I don't take this as a joke either. As to me, prayer should be sacred. It should be within you and your God. It shouldn't be a status. Or a show off to news feed, telling people to pray. If you feel for those people in Nepal, you'd pray, this is common sense, seeing someone's status and wall post of the pictures won't get you on your zainamaz. This is something you have to do it yourself.

No I don't wanna picture myself or my family in that position because it's hypothetical and if I did I wouldn't actually care if people showed me sympathy on facebook. I would've wanted to see an action rather than just words.

About asking for forgiveness to God...Okay, I have a say to that. This is bullshit. You should ask for forgiveness of your sins to God, everyday. Not just the day when you think the world could end in his wrath. What difference would it make? Tell me. What difference would it make if you ask for it at the very last minute but sinned your whole life. It's like whenever you sense a possibility of death, you'd ask and pray genuinely for all the sins that you've done, and when the earth settles, the possibility of you dying is proven wrong you are you again. Doing sins in your normal life,doing things that you feel you would ask for forgiveness again when the possibility of death arises.

Technology sucks. I wouldn't be blogging about this if it weren't gone that viral. I would be studying peacefully and watching news on TV and I wouldn't even share what I would be doing. Gee.








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