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How to stop screwing yourself over | Mel Robbins | TEDxSF

What do you want me to write about? I am on my eid vacation and nothing's quite happening with my life right now. I can talk about my cousin's first date. We are of same age and she is starting to fall in love. I bet it's wonderful. The way she was talking about him whole night, made me believe in things. She is a very good student by the way, always busy with studies and extra curricular, I always doubted she would make time for somebody. But nothing's impossible I guess. I am content being single but sometimes it gets less interesting. And sometimes I feel it won't be horrible if I have someone by my side, making me laugh, talking about songs and movies or just you know. Be there with me. I really think, love can change you. I have observed that with my close friends and now family. Or I am just craving for a pet....I really think that my life would dramatically improve if I get a pug. But my parents are horrible. They don't allow any livi...
I miss my niece so much. I can't measure it....I remember her  every day. Every single day since she left for Ontario. 
I might be picking up my old pattern again...On the edge of a mental breakdown. I am missing Music Guy again. I don't see him around much, like two days a week maybe, even when I do, we avoid eye contact, and sometimes talk like in an indirect manner. I thought I was over the obsession but actually it is my desperateness of wanting to feel loved. When I am around my friends, I feel like I am missing out on something....It is not Music Guy who I want to be with...It is just, he is the only potential person I once loved and wanted to be with, so I am simply getting haunted by the past. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uqkm0MnHAv4 Another spectacular news my mother gave me this morning...The guy(MY mom's friend's son)I was supposed to meet, is getting married this month....We just got invited. Can you believe this? I know I was against the idea after the instagram incident but it feels like a kick in my stomach... I don't know why people think it is okay to assume th...
Chick flick movies have an effect on me...I just finished watching When Harry Met Sally, it's a classic movie of the nineties and I loved it to the core. I wrote an article to The Daily Star last week, haven't had read the paper lately, I've grown lazy again. Therefore I haven't checked if they published it. I think they didn't. My dad writes to the editor now and then and gets published just three days time, I am kind of jealous.
I think every girl dreams a wedding, growing up. I have a wedding planned in the back of my head, I mentally list down things I find eligible for my future wedding and I have been saying wedding a lot. It is because of the Royals who just got married past Saturday and I can't stop obsessing over the videos, the memes, the picture perfect couple. Though there's no such chance of me getting wed, At least not for a year and half, but I really do am fancying a wedding! That guy my mom's told me about, who's mother is my mother's friend, (who I stalked on social media for couple of days) and who might have a chance of meeting me in person in future. That's what my mom tells me. But never have I thought, in actual terms, that he would find his way back to me! When I, out of sheer curiosity sent him a follow request on instagram with showing my first name only, I wasn't sure if he knew me, or if he has by any chance, stalked my profile. I was happy when he ac...