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I am on my eid vacation and nothing's quite happening with my life right now.
I can talk about my cousin's first date. We are of same age and she is starting to fall in love.
I bet it's wonderful. The way she was talking about him whole night, made me believe in things.
She is a very good student by the way, always busy with studies and extra curricular, I always doubted she would make time for somebody. But nothing's impossible I guess.


I am content being single but sometimes it gets less interesting. And sometimes I feel it won't be horrible if I have someone by my side, making me laugh, talking about songs and movies or just you know. Be there with me. I really think, love can change you. I have observed that with my close friends and now family.

Or I am just craving for a pet....I really think that my life would dramatically improve if I get a pug. But my parents are horrible. They don't allow any living thing that would poop around the house. My sister's baby is an exception. God I miss her.

I don't know why I feel so incomplete. I mean life is kind to me these days, my skin cleared up, my academics are going okay. Hairs are growing back on my bald spot, seriously I should be nothing but grateful.







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