Everly

sucking the life outta meh.

Didn't get into DU. No Hard Feelings.I moved on already. I am relieved tho. It has been an awful experience but I learned a lot through it. And let me quote this awesome line- Failure is the pillar of success.   And I am so blessed that my parents aren't less proud of me, they appreciated that I stood among those 2500 out of 7000 who passed out of 47000. I was in bed for 15 days last month because of Dengu and still I managed to face this test. And so my parents have been so understanding and seriously, at this moment all I needed was a little support and they have given me oh-so-more than that. I am so thankful to them that they still appreciated me  instead of letting me down. They're the source of my courage. I am gonna do full-on studies and this time- it's gonna be different. I would not force myself to studying, I would be delightfully doing it. And face the exams with full grace.

Now I'm thinking, "Was I over prepared? Cause my head was all over the place." :-( The question paper was easy. But I only felt that when I got home. I am disappointed at myself for thinking too much in the examination hall. I just got scared and possessive of the marks. I didn't want my right answers to be cut out by negative marking. So I could have answered 85 percent of the questions and I answered only 70 percent. SO there you go. I am not getting into DU. The results gonna be out in three days and I already have set my mind to the next stage. I have to do something, I thought I would feel a relief today because finally the exam would be over and I wouldn't have to study for 5 big subjects at a row, but I am not feeling any relief. My hard work didn't pay off. I was miserable there. I have to work harder and make sure this doesn't happen at any exams in my life because that feeling is unbearable. When you doubt yourself in the exam hall- it's t...

*Exhales* Only 5 days left till the entrance exam. How am I doing? I don't know. My preparation certainly isn't up to the mark. But I'm always telling myself to keep trying. Miracles happen and what I understood about myself is that- I can work hard on anything that once I set my mind to, even when I am late to realize it. Most of the times I had lost it and been completely miserable and slept for abnormal hours. But now I am changing for good. I hope.  The more I am studying the more it's fucking with my mind. The more my confidence is getting shaken up. But one thing that is clear and out of my understanding is that- this is not the end. Life awaits me . And things will get better and better, even if it gets worse, it will get better eventually. IF I don't get into DU my life will be a little miserable, but I will get over it and grow. What do I have to lose? At least now I know that- I can do hard work. I am not that lazy girl I thought I were, I mean ye...

Beautiful!!!

Oh my gosh I am so gonna enjoy this. So what happened is, the girl who works at our house, is a thief. She steals our things and puts them underneath her clothes in her drawer. She is leaving our house tomorrow so my mom kind of sneaked in her drawers when she went to bath. And guess what she found. My fav shade of nail polish and all sorts of things we've been missing out at our house. So my mom took back all of those without her knowing.Yeah, We stole back our things. Now I am just waiting for her reaction. HAHAHA. This is so fun. We all know and she'll know but we're gonna be completely zip up about this. YEEEK!