Everly

This morning I had a horrible dream of losing some one so precious to me, and when I woke up I was relieved that it was just a dream, but then I could feel the pain inside of me, like I've been through hell and back.You see, a nightmare can make you realize what your biggest fear is.My biggest fear is losing my dad. The moment I realized it was just a dream, was the moment I realized forever does not last.There will be a time, when we're all gonna die.I can imagine myself at my own funeral, but I can't simply imagine a day without my father,not a single morning, not a split second.I just can't afford my life without him, it haunts me every now and then.I don't need anything on this earth when I have the most precious thing beside me,I'm thankful for every breath he takes and that he's with us.I just want him safe and sound.I want him for a lifetime. I feel like my home, the home that my dad provided-is the happiest place on earth and ever will be.I may ...

I've nothing to say about racism, religion or anything when it comes to Gaza.Because people have already done that.And to tell you the truth, I barely read the newspaper and BBC or CNN are not kind of the channels I watch.But I have facebook and instagram, so I'm not completely unaware of the things that happening in Gaza.I don't know if I should grief and pity them and be shocked by how brutally they've been killed and bombed.But that I am a human,and seeing their pictures and sufferings gives me tears right away.I can't stand that a 2/3 year old gets shot right in the head.I can't hold my tears imagining myself or my relatives in that horrible position. It's beyond grief, really. I get goosebumps seeing all these blood and dead bodies on pictures, I feel like Is this really happening? Can't they just take a break and stop killing people like that? What is so important to them that they have to take people's lives away,make them miserable as ever?...

Hey you, yes, you. Stop being unhappy with yourself. You are perfect. Stop wishing you looked like someone else or wishing people liked you as much as they like someone else. Be confident with who you are. Smile, it’ll draw people in. If anyone hates on you because you are happy with yourself, then you stick your middle finger in the air and say, “Screw it. My happiness will not depend on others anymore. I’m happy because I love who I am. I love my flaws. I love my imperfections.

You know what they say, there is nothing sexier than a good conversation.Intelligence is the new sexy.  And I've read somewhere that 8.2 seconds of eye contact is required for "Love at first sight" feeling to occur.So it all comes down to this. "Your naked body should only belong to those who fall in love with your naked soul" Charlie Chaplin, in a letter to his daughter. Another one: Crush can stay for like 4 months. If it exceeds it's not a crush,you're in love.

Is there anything more painful than one-sided love? I've been dealing with this pain since I was in high-school, and I'm feeling numb as the days go by.I mean seriously? How many times do I have to fall for some one that doesn't feel the same, or doesn't even know the true part of me or doesn't even know that I exist? My current "one-sided love" is quite embarrassing.I had no intention to write about it in my blog,but you have to believe me, I can't hold it long enough. And I don't think anyone reads this blog so why not? I don't know how on earth I fall for this guy because I have fallen for celebrities and football players most of the time, let alone strangers. I rather call it a crush cause it's nothing serious,just bothering me quite a few days.So here it goes. I'm crushing on someone I'm not supposed to.He's a senior and even married.He is someone I know outside of the family circle.So yeah, not illegal but still, icky!...

Abbu, Why do you freaking care so much? I'm gonna screw-up and that's universal.Please don't give me the right to upset you.I know you're so upset because of me, why does it have to be that way? Don't be sad, ever.You have accomplished fair enough.Your parents are definitely proud of you.Now let me be the reason of your pride...You know what the problem is? You want something from me, that's not really "me". I'm no hard-worker,I am a lazy dumb-ass.But you worry too much.I'll get back on my feet.It will take time.So mean-time you enjoy the life of yours.You deserve that.  source: my diary,8th May.[shorter version] Looks like I'm teaching my father how the parenting thing works.I was sorta mad at my dad for being so upset over me and my studies and whatever.But let me tell you this, My father he's a complete sweetheart.And he treats me like a 3 year old. It doesn't bother me a bit. To me, that's affection. And I won't tra...

I've been reading Anne Frank's diary at eighteen which is kind of shameful. I guess, almost everybody knows of her written treasure but me. I've heard her name plenty of times and I've been burying my curiosity all this time.I always wanted to read her diary, a.k.a The Diary of a Young Girl- as I've always been sneaky on reading other people's private journals, but how come I missed this one? The universal one? You have no idea how dumb I can get! Getting to her diary was simple. I wouldn't have to purchase it since I've already got it on my smartphone.Just downloaded the pdf file and started reading it. I have a lot more pages to go, to be honest I don't want it to end.Because it's truly sad.This girl, who used be so sensitive and cried over her mama's mocking is no longer alive...I mean where is she and how is she doing right now? what about her cat Moortje? The more I read about her, the more I wish she were alive.