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This morning I had a horrible dream of losing some one so precious to me, and when I woke up I was relieved that it was just a dream, but then I could feel the pain inside of me, like I've been through hell and back.You see, a nightmare can make you realize what your biggest fear is.My biggest fear is losing my dad.

The moment I realized it was just a dream, was the moment I realized forever does not last.There will be a time, when we're all gonna die.I can imagine myself at my own funeral, but I can't simply imagine a day without my father,not a single morning, not a split second.I just can't afford my life without him, it haunts me every now and then.I don't need anything on this earth when I have the most precious thing beside me,I'm thankful for every breath he takes and that he's with us.I just want him safe and sound.I want him for a lifetime.

I feel like my home, the home that my dad provided-is the happiest place on earth and ever will be.I may not have all the luxuries, I may not have everything I want, but I have everything that I need.I have my Abbu.I don't need anyone.When I'm with him I feel invincible, and the happiest and luckiest girl in the whole world.I can't tell you all the things he did for us, it won't fit in here.He's much more of a dad.He is my best friend.He is my hero.My inspiration.I don't need anything,seriously.I'm happy and blessed.Thank you Allah, you gave me the bestest dad ever.I owe you.

Religion does not define you.What defines you is your soul,not what you believe in.My dad might not be an organized religious man,but he is a good soul.He is kind, he is courageous,caring,loyal, there's no question about his character.When I talk after-life with him, I get surprised by his optimism and loyalty.

May Allah grant him his every single wish and a sound,profound health and a long life.

I will make my dad proud one day, I promise.

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