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Day 52

Okay for now, I am happy that I am cured of insomnia. But other than that, I am super worried about the future. Am I gonna be able to get a job?

I don't know. I feel totally purposeless.

Good news is, I feel better now. I miss him but I don't need him. If this crisis ends, I may just meet him for cuddles, nothing romantic. I don't care if we don't talk much, I just need to get me some oxytocin.

I decided that, I am gonna do whatever makes me happy. If this pandemic had taught me anything, it is that life is temporary and fragile and short and unpredictable and so make every moment count. Enjoy while it lasts. Have fun during the journey rather than worrying about the destination.

I know, I know. These are cliched quotes but I hang onto these sayings more than ever. They seem more relatable now.

It's just, being home for this long has enabled me to see things from a different light. It made me understand the value of everyday life, the value of touch and physical interaction, simplest things like having our feet on earth, watching the world go by, and roaming around the chaotic city.

It is weird how I just think backwards now. Because my life seems so beautiful and interesting backwards.

I really hope we as a generation, survive this and come back stronger. I pray that people who are suffering right now, heal fast.

I want my future kids to have a beautiful life full of good things and I want them to be able to hug and kiss without a worry in the world of getting some jackass killer virus.

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