day 43
I have to learn to handle rejections. Instead of getting demotivated, I should get motivated to try harder. I had been rejected of the two internship offers already and one of it had a strength assessment test which I just got the feedback from. And it said, I have to learn to handle constructive criticism and also that I may have a lack of confidence in me and that I may have a tendency understate my achievements.
I am gonna have more rejections in the future, given that I have lack of experience. I have to be strong and persevere through it all. It doesn't help staying at home all day, I should find something to do that stimulates my mind. Wasting my energy on movies and sleeping are not gonna get me jobs.
Self caring is a complex subject to be honest. It is when you accept your imperfections yet you strive for a growth. You have to make sure you're healthy, by eating healthy, do exercise, correct amount of sleep, let go of toxic relations, find your core self, work harder on yourself to improve yourself. That's not gonna happen with loving yourself. It contradicts. Like if you love yourself the way you are, you are not initiating a change. You are staying in a confined box of your own perception that you're great, you don't need any behavioral correction.
I do feel I need to change some patterns in me. My obsessiveness with almost everything that gives me a little bit of validation, my addiction to sleeping to run away from problems, my tendency to skip uncomfortable conversations, my tendency to let people overstep my boundaries, my tendency to take criticism poorly and my tendency to not being able to say NO to things I shouldn't even consider for a second.
I have to work on being a responsible human being as well. I am not so good at responsibilities. I have to be proactive and have to have a brush up of self confidence.
Self care- is not hot bath and scented candles. It is accepting that you have imperfections and working on things that stimulates growth. It is much more complex than it is displayed on social media with bubble baths and sort. It is not pretty. It is quite messy and takes persistence and deeper acknowledgement of one's true self.
I am not ready to fall in love with another being yet, I am still a work in progress. I have so much issues to sort out first. And when I fall in love, I divert my energy from myself. I am 24, this is a prime time to focus on myself only. I can't give my 100 percent to someone even if I wish to. I have to understand that.
I am trying to brainwash my mind, by myself which is kinda funny. Hey yo, thick head. Read this post again and stop thinking all the irrational things you wanna do with him. He is not gonna call you back, this is not the time to think about having no strings attached, this is the time to build your career. So focus, you whore.
Right man will come to you, the right time, when you're also ready.
Sincerely,
your rather more logical part of the brain.
I have to learn to handle rejections. Instead of getting demotivated, I should get motivated to try harder. I had been rejected of the two internship offers already and one of it had a strength assessment test which I just got the feedback from. And it said, I have to learn to handle constructive criticism and also that I may have a lack of confidence in me and that I may have a tendency understate my achievements.
I am gonna have more rejections in the future, given that I have lack of experience. I have to be strong and persevere through it all. It doesn't help staying at home all day, I should find something to do that stimulates my mind. Wasting my energy on movies and sleeping are not gonna get me jobs.
Self caring is a complex subject to be honest. It is when you accept your imperfections yet you strive for a growth. You have to make sure you're healthy, by eating healthy, do exercise, correct amount of sleep, let go of toxic relations, find your core self, work harder on yourself to improve yourself. That's not gonna happen with loving yourself. It contradicts. Like if you love yourself the way you are, you are not initiating a change. You are staying in a confined box of your own perception that you're great, you don't need any behavioral correction.
I do feel I need to change some patterns in me. My obsessiveness with almost everything that gives me a little bit of validation, my addiction to sleeping to run away from problems, my tendency to skip uncomfortable conversations, my tendency to let people overstep my boundaries, my tendency to take criticism poorly and my tendency to not being able to say NO to things I shouldn't even consider for a second.
I have to work on being a responsible human being as well. I am not so good at responsibilities. I have to be proactive and have to have a brush up of self confidence.
Self care- is not hot bath and scented candles. It is accepting that you have imperfections and working on things that stimulates growth. It is much more complex than it is displayed on social media with bubble baths and sort. It is not pretty. It is quite messy and takes persistence and deeper acknowledgement of one's true self.
I am not ready to fall in love with another being yet, I am still a work in progress. I have so much issues to sort out first. And when I fall in love, I divert my energy from myself. I am 24, this is a prime time to focus on myself only. I can't give my 100 percent to someone even if I wish to. I have to understand that.
I am trying to brainwash my mind, by myself which is kinda funny. Hey yo, thick head. Read this post again and stop thinking all the irrational things you wanna do with him. He is not gonna call you back, this is not the time to think about having no strings attached, this is the time to build your career. So focus, you whore.
Right man will come to you, the right time, when you're also ready.
Sincerely,
your rather more logical part of the brain.
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