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Why are men such jerks?
I am so mad at him. For thinking it is awfully funny. To ask me out for only the sole purpose of watching my reaction. Well it is clever that way. He would know what's on my mind without even getting real. Wow why didn't I think of that?
Well my silver lining: he has not pulled that prank on me yet because I leave early and I don't give him the chance to talk. I bet he has changed his mind. My friend told me his intentions early on and so, guess what. I am guarding myself by being utterly childish and incredibly sensitive. Okay, whatever, I can't take a joke, I am a buzzkill.

My life is going blunt. Super blunt. One thing I am sure of. And that is. I am going to be single for a lot and lot of time, until I figure out my career and myself and by that time, my mom will do the man hunt and get me out of the house. 

All I want now, is be on my feet. Give my father a break...He is doing so much for our family, I can't look at his face, he looks so tired and wrinkled. It makes me cry. I really want to prove myself. I want to be responsible. For once in my life. I want to make him happy and relaxing.

Okay no more time to tear up. I have to stay focused... One and half year to go. To graduate, To step in the real world. 


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