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Have you watched "The Duff"? Now if you have, you will understand what position I am currently in. What does Duff stand for...Designated Ugly Fat Friend. Pretty girls don't always hangout with other pretty girls, and that's a fact. And guys, they always go for -I am using the term "Less pretty girls" here; case sensitive, because they are easily approachable and the right person to ask favor. Whatever is confessed by the guy, he hopes that the less pretty girl will secretly pass it on the pretty girl and learn her feelings and take actions accordingly. Trust me on this, it's not that complicate of a process.

Turtle dove and I are getting duffed. Turtle dove especially. I don't know, if she knows it yet.She hangs out with him all the time. I am telling you, this guy is a player. He will stop giving attention to turtle dove when he will get the girl. And even tho turtle dove is enjoying his company, she may get hurt when this thing will be over for real. And talk about me now. I can't believe I was crushing on this jerk. I practically been on a date, a three persons date, planning things on how to get S&h to like him. I mean this is ridiculous. S&h doesn't give a fuck. She is just enjoying the attention. Avoiding him. Making us think that she doesn't wanna break his heart and stuff.

Today I avoided him. Even when he was calling me, to have something to eat. I didn't want to lose the tiniest dignity I have inside of me. I am not being serious, I just. I don't like this at all. Not that I have feelings for him. I just don't wanna misuse friendship. If he were genuinely being my friend I could have approved it or hangout with him more, but to him, this has to serve a purpose. And today I looked at the screenshots of him saying how much he likes S&H's smile and how much loyal he is to the core. Bite me okay. Loyal? Him? Yeah, right. His words were somewhat like-if Scarlett Johnson were to sit beside him, he would not give a damn while he has S&h as his girlfriend. I mean seriously dude. You think you are that worthy to sit beside Scarlett Johnson? So afar thinking.

I know I am being too judgmental on him, he is just crushed and can't help but. There are ways. To solve that. He could go over to S&h and figure things out. Girls like boys who are brave. Who has the guts to say I like you, I like your smile, would you like to go out with me sometime?

And one thing I don't get about Turtle Dove is that she talks with him as if. As if. She hasn't told S&h yet. Does she know, he is all about letting S&H know he likes her and know if she likes him too or not. In the screenshots I saw how he was praising S&h, complimenting and stuff and telling his qualities as a lover. His words were somewhat like- "I wish I knew what she's feeling about me." And then turtle dove didn't reply. I mean, is she actually lingering on this fact so she could hangout even more? I don't know if it's actually a love triangle. Just so you know, I am not in it.

I wanted to share this with Anika, Mysha. They know how badly I was crushing on this guy before. Now they should know how badly I loathe him for being such a player. For liking a girl who doesn't give a fuck about him. For using a friendship. I just hope turtle dove doesn't get hurt behind all of these. Because I am not that of a "friend" to him and she's the one always hanging out, I just hope her friendship with him get into real terms. Because she says he could be her lifelong friend and I certainly doubt that he would.

Ah it feels great getting these off my chest. I thought I was gonna faint if  I didn't.

















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