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Last night.

For a split moment, she came to my thoughts, Maisha Annava (a girl in our class) She's the person who sits right beside me this board exam. So last night. I was thinking, just a year back, how I used to hate this girl and wrote rude comments about her here in this blog. I was thinking, how even I hated her, she's such fun to be around with when I got to know her. Literally, she's the hilarious creature alive. How could I write such things like "I hate her to the infinity" ? Last night I kept thinking about these things and kind of made up my mind to edit/delete that post from  August 30, 2014 first thing when I'd sit before my computer. And last night, last night it was, when I focused on the good things about her and realized there's nothing about her that I can hate. She's such person who would make a bad day feel good. And everybody loves her, that includes me obviously.

Today morning

It started with a jinx. I woke up late. Our car wouldn't start. Eventually, the engine got fixed and I went to the exam center with my dad. Today was English exam. When I entered the class, there were few there and I saw Namy crying. I thought might be a "breakup issue" because you know nowadays...whatever so I ignored her and put my bag on where I sit. Then I went outside to get some air, talk to my friends. Ankan never was late but today, I don't know why she came late. Anyways, I went to the veranda where two of my friends stood and I said hi. Then they said the weird most and shocking thing ever!

Have you heard?
what?
About Maisha? She had an accident.

She was crossing the rail way just 45 minutes before exam. There were no signals of the train coming. She was in the rickshaw and the rickshaw was stuck in the midway of the rail line. And then it came, the train, without signal and she jumped off the rickshaw to save her life but ironically, a private car ran over her leg. She's hospitalized, she's gonna lose her leg. The rickshaw puller, he died under that train because he was late to jump off.

Can you believe this? I usually don't think about her because we weren't that close, she was just my classmate and I used to get enchanted by her accidentally swept over conversation. I know I'm making this completely about me, by saying, last night might have been a sign that something was going to happen to her. She used to sit right beside me, I used to ask her MCQ's and answer's I wasn't sure of and it's been only two exams. She's not making it this year. She's losing one leg. Her dreams, I don't know she must have dreams right?  What about her boyfriend, her long term relationship, will anything get changed because of this accident? Will he/his family accept her as she is right now? I mean they should but will they?
ANd most importantly, what is going on her mind right now? How's she feeling about all these? I know she's a strong, a very strong girl but things that happened to her today, is she okay, is she going to be okay? Am I going to see her smiling and cracking jokes again?

It just takes up a second. A second, or a split, to ruin one's life. Seriously, who would've thought? She could die today, but she jumped, she saved her own life. Maybe, she's going to be okay with one leg and she's going to continue living with it, and maybe she'll join the college again. I just pray for this girl, that she gets everything, everything she wishes for. I pray that she gets well soon and survive this bad time. This is all I can do. Because I wasn't there when she was screaming in pain, for people to get her into her feet, to get her in a hospital. I wasn't there. She doesn't even know me that much, we weren't close friends, I sure did feel her absence in the exam hall today, I sure did look constantly and absent mindedly at her desk where she used to sit. That desk. No one's gonna sit there till the end of the exam from now. And I'm going to keep thinking about her whenever that desk going to catch my sight.

Her accident. It gave me a life lesson. Don't take anything for granted. Life is so uncertain.

I feel like things are interconnected. Me thinking about her right the night before her accident, that re-arrange passage on the question paper today- The cook and the master, where the cook eats up one drumstick of the duck roast and tries to convince his master by saying that duck had only one leg.What is happening today?






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