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Not Dated, but the entry is from 2014

When I look into your eyes I fall right back in love <3

So this is about the person I am crushing on for a year now...I know it's not just a crush. I like him. He's my teacher. He's married, happily I guess >.< And he has a cute son, really cute. Like father, like son. So I've been looking at him shamelessly at college. When he's been taking classes.What?! I can't help it, he looks so relishly charming. I hardly could take a stare off. I like when he wears his royal blue t-shirt. It suites him really well. Like that shirt is made for him. And the deep violet one that he often wears. It makes me wanna hug him. I often hug him though. In my dreams, stupid. But a visual hug is not enough for me.I know it's inappropriate to think like that about my teacher, but he's so crush-able! Not just in looks, his way of talking, his humor, eyes, smile, of him being a good father to his son makes me want him even more. He can make a good husband. He's a good husband actually. But unfortunately with someone else. I wish I could be his wife. He's double my age, so what? Age doesn't matter when it comes to love.So I look at him shamelessly in his eyes, vulnerably often and in mind I've already kissed him, a thousand splendid times <3 
I should study for my exam but the thought of him is really distracting. All this time I crushed on celebs and football players but him, he's a real crush. Flesh and blood. And when I face him I go all red. 
He's so distracting I can't study. I can't fail in his subject. No. I have to study..Like right now.
Bye.

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