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My college started from yesterday. And I had slept through all the lectures as usual. The day before yesterday is where all interesting things happened. Trust me I was dying to confess up here all this time but couldn’t get the pc. Sad, no?
Now, shall we? ;)

Confession*59

So on Saturday I went to the private. The class didn’t start then so I was gossiping with the other girls. I got kind of distracted in the mid way and glanced at the door outside. I was hoping to see my friend Ankan. When I glanced back to the girls, they already stopped the conversation. Because Sir came. And his eyes were settling on mine. I didn’t notice at first. But when I did, uh well I kind of flushed. In my mind, I was hoping to get away with his gaze and go home, bury my face in the pillow. I got so nervous that I couldn’t even meet his eyes. I looked to the doorway while he was asking me, “How are you?” I said, “Fine.” Looking back to him and then again to the doorway. I felt like an idiot! A strange thing happened the moment. He glanced a little at my dress. And in my mind I was like “Am I looking weird/pretty?  *blush*blush*blush. I had wore a ponytail that day, wasn’t in my best hair. So I am gonna go with the term-weird. 
Then he didn’t stay long. He just said he has checked section B’s exam scripts and the marks didn’t come out so good. And I remembered about how suckish my stat exam was and felt like a stupid again. He must’ve already checked my script and pitied me on my poor marks. He must’ve found out that I am a bad grade student. Such a shame to behold!

 

Confession*60

When the afternoon came I sat to chat with Ann. She was bursting with stories. She said that she did a naughty thing and I was like- what? Tell me already. I am always so eager she said.
It was about her and a black guy named Mike. He has a crush on her since the beginning. And the other day he attempted to kiss her. She didn’t let him as to her logic, if she did, he would’ve shove his tongue onto her mouth. But later, when he kissed her on her neck on and on she couldn’t stop him. She was like-“I don’t care if he has a girlfriend, I like what he does to me, slut alert!” -this is Ann, sounding all like Ms. Steel from Fifty Shades. I messaged her –“ I don’t think he’s the right guy for you. Just be careful. I know you can take care of yourself but still saying.”
I know I have no say in this since it’s her business. But whatever. I am just worried about her suddenly involved with this guy. I kind of stalked him on facebook (HEHEHE) the other day and guess what? Almost every pic of him is either shirtless or unbuttoned. And there was a photo of him kissing another girl. I asked Ann if someday he asks to sleep with her what’d she do, and she was like- "He wouldn’t dare.One day he's gonna grow tired of me not doing stuff with him and he's gonna leave me. And that day will be my Salvation."

It’s not Ann, it’s just him I don’t trust. Although I just know him by his online profile, this whole thing with him and Ann sounds kind of itchy.
I promised her I wouldn’t tell anyone about any of this. Uh-well this blog doesn’t count. :P

Confession*61

We went to api’s in-laws house for dinner at night. Api didn’t go with us because she wasn’t officially received by her husband yet, so she stayed home alone. It was nice but a bit awkward having dinner with the new relatives. They are kind of different from our family. Like, they are awfully good with talking with people, which I particularly suck at. They are sarcastic and smart whereas us, we’re the serious type. I could feel the gap with the new kinship.
My api is their daughter in-law, it built up a new relationship between them and us, but I am not so sure how to act on that. When I talk to my brother-in-law, we kind of bore each other. We don’t have much we could talk about. And when it comes to talking with grownups my mind goes blank. He gave us(me and my brother) movies to watch, we talked through the movie a bit, pretended to laugh, then we ate, watched the fishes in the aquarium, had dessert, watched another movie but half because we had to leave early, it was some movie of two old men fighting cancer. Then abbu called, and we went back home. That pretty much sums it up. Yeah.


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