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Confession#57

Today I sat to study after ages. Actually I didn't study. I did the practical shits. I mean *sheets. Copy-pasted the answers, yeah that pretty much it.
I can't believe I am missing college, the rush, waking up in the morning, having breakfast. You must be wondering, why on earth I'd be missing breakfast? Because this whole vacation I've been an insomniac. I get my night's sleep after Fazr Azaan. I've skipped breakfasts in a row. Aww I miss eating eggs with ruti-vaji. And the morning chai!
Enough about food already. Let's talk about my home-wait for it-sickness.
I am truly and profoundly sick and tired of home. I wanna get out, to get some fresh air. This is Dhaka though. But at least I could get some filthy polluted air to breath in and out.What do I get staying at home? Just boredom.
The problem is that I have no such friends that would waste money/time on hangouts. They are the ultimate nerds; studying all the time. ugh. Also that I live in such area where they could hardly reach me and my house for a get-together party. 
Life is so unfair, no?   
Complaining, yeah that's what I do best. Trust me, when you're bored, there's nothing you can master well rather than just sitting and complaining and stuffs.
And I miss him! I haven't seen his face since forever. It's been actually 11 days. 11 FREAKING DAYS!! Now I sound retarded, don't I? Like I said, I can turn any topic back into him.

I wish my father's laptop hadn't crashed then I could watch Fawad Khan on youtube without any interruption on the living room couch and would forget about the person for a while whom I haven't seen for eleven days. Because you can't really miss anyone when you're watching Fawad.

By the way, I rediscovered my obsessions to watching youtube videos this vacation. If youtube were to pay the users for watching and subscribing, I could make one hell of a billion. I've recently watched iiSuperwomanii's videos. That girl is fab!  

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