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Confession# 65

We had a little talk today, in whispers.
I was in private and he was telling us theories to write. I didn't get to sit on the desk because there weren't enough sits. So at first i sat on one of the chairs at the very corner. And he shifted me to the stools in the middle row. I wasn't willing to because then I'd be separated from Ankan who was sitting next to me. Because she's the only person I mostly talk with. But he said, the fans wouldn't reach the corners(Aww I like how he cared) and so I was shifted to the airy area, on a stool in the middle row.
Then it started, the writing theories. Ugh, Boring. But I would stop writing as when he'd pause and exchange a glare. And the most interesting part was when I glanced outside, he looked at the outside too, like he was following me or something. Like he wanted to know what I was staring at.
So it didn't turn out that much boring.
It was like half an hour later, I kind of got sleepy and he called me up. It felt so good hearing my name by him after like ages. I thought he wouldn't say anything to me just warn me not to sleep. So I continued my writing and he took me by surprise and asked me about my position in the pre-test. I blushed because I stood 62 out of 300. So I told him in a low voice that it was bad. And he took me with the whisper, asked me about how bad it is, he wouldn't tell anyone. Like he can be so childish sometimes. I looked at him and whispered him back, he didn't seem to understand it. I saw a girl was peeking at me so I told him I wouldn't reveal it to him. He grinned at me. (Aww!!) All this time everyone was busy in writing but when he grinned and laughed a bit, they got curious and looked at us. He was like- "We had a little talk while you guys were...But I didn't understand the last thing she said." And everybody glared. I didn't say anything just got busy into writing because it wasn't something to say out loud. He was in such a good mood today, if you could see his face!
Nobody got to interfere, that moment was just ours. ;) Maybe you'd think this was silly, but to me that was the most precious moment I ever had with him. Really.
Later on the way home, while in the rickshaw people from the streets probably thought I had gone mad because I was smiling all the way. I was alone but smiling, wondering. Signs of a mental patient, don't you think?


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