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world war?

 Dear B, 

I don't watch the news but there has been a lot of speculations on social media of a possible world war III. My sister just texted me that I should save up money as we don't know what that might do to the economy. It is ironic because I just ordered something online last night. Every time I go out, I spend. I don't even have a good paying job and I spend like I have full time.

However, one thing I learned from my past is that there is no point in stressing about the future. What I have control over is now. I can either live in the moment or ruin it by ruminating and what good will it bring to my life?

Living alone can get boring. However, I am trying to find things to do. Maybe I will visit a bookstore today. Lets see. 

I have rearranged the furnitures yesterday. Cleaned as well. The place looks good. 

Maybe I will go IKEA. I love it there. Even though I can't afford furnitures, I just enjoy looking at them.

Oh what to tell you B. My in-laws are coming this week to pay me a visit. I have been kind of stressing about what to cook for them. Have to do groceries too. It is a whole week of work. 

Update on adult friendships - no progress. The people I met, kind of drifting away. Due to life. Job. Lack of effort from their part. One of them is so flaky that I am tired of reaching out to her anymore.

I have accepted it and now I am moving and trying to hangout by myself. Enjoy my own company. Because life is too short to wait for someone to make time for you.

On the health aspect, I have been trying to incorporate some healthy juices in my diet. Unfortunately, my recent liver test was high. Well, I haven't made an appointment yet. I hope it is nothing serious. I have also started working out at home a bit. It is no heavy weights nothing. I am just focusing on moving my body more. My husband on the other hand is being serious with his workouts and almost daily shares all these exercises on instagram. It is a bit annoying. 

Yeah so that's a scoop of my life at the moment. I will write to you. 

I do feel comfort sharing my thoughts here. You are like this invisible friend in need. A safe space. A shoulder to lean on when I am literally the loneliest girl on planet. Thank you! Hug!






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