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 I am moving to new country soon. 

I have a lot of mixed feelings going on right now about leaving my parents, my brother, my friends, everyone back here. I don't know if I will make enough for airfares but I do want to come back and be in touch with them. I am bit nervous and also excited starting this new chapter of my life...

I realized I have gotten almost everything once I dreamed of. I did fall in love, I did marry the love of my life, and now I am leaving this country soon to be with him and grow old with him. 

My life has been traumatically beautiful. I say traumatically because once upon a time, I believed that I would never be happy or that I am unlovable, or that I won't have friends...

I have a life now surrounded by people I care about and I am loved and cherished. 

My only worry right now is my brother. 

He has been in and out of jobs and struggling with adulthood. I just hope he finds clarity and peace and be self sufficient. 

In this world if you're not self sufficient, things can get very rough and tough. 

I guess, I will have challenges of my own, living in a new place. 

However, I am very much content with the person I am going to live with. 

He is my peace, my rock, my soul mate. 

I can't be any happier joining him and build a home together. 

x

Love wins 

x


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