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 Dear B,

Glad to report you that I am very much alive. So far, my family is doing okay. So grateful for surviving each day, each week. It is a blessing from Allah. 

I have submitted my internship report. Waiting for the final presentation of my undergrad study. Can't wait to finally be a graduate student.

For now, me and my friends are planning to apply for post grad abroad. For next year intake. I need some fund. Which I have to manage from my aunty or uncle because my father has already so much in his shoulders. Can't pressurize him like that.

My internship is still going on. It is till November. I just sincerely hope, me and my family survive this through pandemic. Nothing else I wish or hope for. 

My mental state is better. Some days are hard. I try to keep in mind, life is not always going to be a smooth ride. And I try to be in the present moment instead of worrying about the future. I think it is better like that. 

My dating life is on pause for now. I just don't get time or energy to talk with new connections. However, I am very much open to love. I have forgiven my past and all things I said or he said and move on with good memories. I am not at all in bad terms with him and honestly I am so happy that whatever happened between us, I stayed my authentic self and told him everything that was in my mind so I don't have any regrets of it. I am proud of myself for not being scared to be vulnerable in front of him. I am walking away with my learnings from this and I feel so content now. And that's what matters.

Dear B,

I am stronger than before. And I feel the shift. This year has been a very unique lesson for me. I never thought I had it in me to come this far.

Indeed, everything that happens, happens for a reason. 

Signing off. 


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