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I am here to spill some tea.
So this guy out of nowhere tells that he has a crush on me. This guy used to be my rebound obsession back in freshmen years, I used to like him a bit, as I knew very little about him. Rebound because I had strong feelings for this other guy who had a girlfriend. I wanted to fill the void with whatever chances I had. To be honest, I was girl full of hopes and dreams, rainbows and butterflies, any new attention would suffice me. I was not in my element. I was a desperate person. But I never told him I liked him back then. One night I thought about it but thank god I woke up the next morning, thinking more rationally and chose to wait over this. Whatever sort of feelings I had. Over three years we have been sort of friends but not too deep. Merely on the surface. Basically, I lost all of my respect for him after knowing his desperate intentions and clingy attitude toward other girls, it just sickened me... And also he used to be very confusing, he used to create confusions among others in our friend circle. I just despise everything about him now.

I just want to thank that girl, three years back, who didn't rush it. She just rescued me. The timing is excellent. If he by any chance told me he had a crush on me back in the day, I would've taken a step. And that would've been an awful mistake.

I mean I like the attention it is flattering. And I don't blame him for it. But I have zero feelings now. The situation is kind of funny though. 

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