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You know, it is true when you be with someone for long enough, you kind of mirror their traits into yourselves without even noticing. You know what I learned from being with her? I learned to speak ill of people. I learned how to put on a fake act and let the others have the benefit of the doubt you like them, but actually you can't stand them.

I don't think I will ever get normal with Turtle Dove again. She hurt me. She made me realize I don't deserve to be treated how I am treated by her. She thought ignoring my existence and clinging to batman would actually made me feel sorry for myself, and you know what? I don't have a sorry ass. I am more than relieved the moment I am not with her. She is manipulative and I can't stand her anymore. Nor Batman. I feel like ripping their hearts out and stepping on them; squishing them like they did with my soul. I just don't know why I feel like that. I can't stand the idea of being friends with them anymore you know. They are awful to be friends with. They have each other, they team up, and they always seek the flaws in me, and if I mess up the tiniest bit they will taunt me about it the whole time. I don't want such negativity around me. I don't wanna be friends with them anymore.

First semester, I was in the dark. I didn't know what I was falling into. Now I know the people I call friends aren't really worth to be called that. I decided from now on I will only focus on my study and my family and the couple of friends that I think are worthy to be spent time for. I won't wait around for them or talk to them unless I need to....
people come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. I guess they were for a reason. To teach me how some people aren't just worth of my time.


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