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Oh my god, I just had the best dinner of the year. My mom's beef vuna is the food of the GODS. I just couldn't stop eating, it melted in my mouth, so soft and enticing. I closed my eyes and devoured piece after piece not worrying a bit about how I am getting so chubby these days.

Anyway, I came here to tell you how's my life.

I am recovered Alhamdulillah, and I have been healthier than before. My insomnia has recovered too with the dengu, it made me so weak I couldn't help but fall asleep at night. In a way, it helped me to get a normal lifestyle and I am kind of healthy now. My appetites are back and I have never been so present everyday, like every moment I am aware and my thoughts don't torment me anymore all because of the book I am reading, The Power of Now I am just loving this self improvement book, it suggests to focus on the present. The past, future and time are delusions, the present, the now is all you have. It just helped release some tension and I am constantly smiling I am not gonna lie. Everything is just so fascinating. Alive. When I am conscious, when I am not lost in the thought of future or whining about the past. Everything is amazing.

So yeah. This is how I am feeling right now. Tomorrow, I'll be back on track, my coaching will start and you know what? Recovering has made me feel brave. I am just so thankful to my dad, he's been nursing me all week to get me better and I just did all because of him, he's my favorite human being.

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