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Growing Up Every Little Second.

“Some day you will be old enough to start reading fairy tales again.” 
― C.S. Lewis



Growing up-Growing old,kinda same words but sounds little different. Sounds boring to me. But i just can't help it. I'm growing up since i was in my mom's body. It's the universal story of life. You gotta grow up eventually and life's gonna end too. But this gap between your growing up and "going up" -this gonna be yours truly. you gotta figure out how're you gonna lead that time of your own. Oh Please! I'm not giving any piece of advice,I'm just writing some crappy words to pass my spare time...:P

So where was I...Yeah about Growing-Up :

“Growing up is losing some illusions, in order to acquire others.” 
― Virginia Woolf

When I was a little kid i always wanted to grow up quickly. I used to think that if i grow up fast, i would get all those freedoms i wished for,do anything i want,have my own kid,scold them,tease them,drive my own car,have my own apartment,money,business and everything a girl can wish for. But trust me,as soon as i am growing up now, I'm realizing life isn't as easy as it seems. It's not carefree nor always with freedom. I had an argument with my parents for sparing me these days. After shedding some dramatic tears realized something lately. I'm not a kid anymore!I'm seventeen! I'm a big girl with so many hopes and dreams and expectations from my parents. They're not gonna be always with me,Life's too short. I wish i could have them for entire life but (sigh!). Missing my old days..Life was so easy back then. I could stay with my parents for almost 24/7, they used to take care of me like a baby. Now all these Freedoms,and future adult utilities seeming really unwanted to me.  I miss my colorful childhood where the hardest decision was to pick a ice-cream flavor.I used to watch back-to-back cartoon episodes (i still watch cartoons but not much:( I miss all those stories and fairy-tales that made my childhood so thrilling and joyous. Growing up sucks!

My fav. Female Singer #Taylor_Swift wrote in her song : 

"Take pictures in your mind of your childhood room
Memorize what it sounded like when your dad gets home
Remember the footsteps, remember the words said
And all your little brother's favorite songs
I just realized everything I have is someday gonna be gone

So here I am in my new apartment
In a big city, they just dropped me off
It's so much colder that I thought it would be
So I tuck myself in and turn my night light on

Wish I'd never grown up
I wish I'd never grown up_"

I am feeling exactly the same.But i just can't stop me from growing up. Everyday I'm going outside and learning something new.Every single day is turning into a whole new level. I'm making mistakes,pacing back and forth and every time i'm growing little by little. 
Last few words #
We are growing up and our parents are growing old too. So we mustn't forget about them...we should take care them as they took care of us when were so little.
I <3 My Parents,
May they live to the infinity. :)

“Parents can only give good advice or put them on the right paths, but the final forming of a person's character lies in their own hands.” 
― Anne Frank


~~~~~EVERLY~~~~~~~

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