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So class got cancelled. I am not going to university today. I like such surprises in the morning.
I am loving Downton Abbey. The thing I love about this tv show is that, it has a very clean graphics. And the actors are awfully good with their dialogues. The season 2 is on download so I am waiting.

I realized one thing. My life is not dull, I am dull. I get bored with even hearing myself talk. I mean I am not interesting at all. Is that something changeable? Maybe with experience and course of events, I'll turn into somewhat substantial and interesting but I don't see it coming soon. I just loathed the idea of me being stuck in here forever. T and I we both wanna leave the country and pursue masters in Canada, which is a farfetched dream I know. Neither of our family is gonna pay for that, the only way to convince them is to get accepted in a scholarship program. And I highly doubt about getting full free scholarship in the near future. We are so average. She is getting better but still....Our CGPA is low.

You know, what the law of attraction says, If you really, really, really want something, you will most probably get it. If only it came true in our case. I really want to go to abroad and live there. But I always saw it as something impossible, something that only marrying a guy with citizenship will make it happen. (My parents prefer me marrying someone abroad than going there alone) But if it comes true, my life will surely change. Lifestyle and Life choices are two most important element, and I crave a big change. I've grown tedious with my current life. Maybe because I don't appreciate it enough.

I know, compared to the Rohingyas stuck in Bangladesh and Myanmar border, tortured to death, facing such nationality crisis, burned alive, slaughtered, raped and facing all kinds of cruelty, in comparability, I am living a life of luxury and I have nothing to whine about. My issues are so temporary and extra. But I guess everybody wants an improvement no matter their positions in life. Each and every one of us strives for a better life, in the least.

You know what befalls me? How cruelty takes over humane...Where are the emotions that separate us from beasts? What is the need for racial cleansing? I don't see it. I just don't get it. Let them live. Centuries after centuries people fought among their races, nationalities and all sorts of stupid labels. It just seems so pointless you know? Why in the first place is it an occupation to slaughter innocent people coming from different religion/racial background? Why are men occupied to fight war with such cruelty and hampering people of peace and killing people who just want to live their lives gracefully and die a natural death?

I wish people had been sensitive towards people, for their genetic lottery. It upsets me how so many people, a lot of girls my age are living in terror, losing their loved ones in a bomb attack or seen them slaughtered or burned alive, it is no less than hell. It is like what my father says, I don't know if there is actually an after life, but heaven and hell, both of them exists on this world if you see close enough. A hell that's created by humans to make suffer the humans. How stupid humans can be!

I got carried away. It is such a gloomy subject now, everyday on newspaper, there's these bloody pictures and headlines, I don't know when will this end, how they gonna survive, how this is gonna be sorted out. Such a crisis for those people. My heart goes out to them.













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