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 Maybe all this time, I had underestimated myself too much. Maybe I can do this. No not "maybe", I can definitely do this. I just have to make a plan. And stick to it. It could be an achievement. Because I have barely made any achievements in life. Why the hell did I give all my hopes up, at the very beginning of something legendary could've taken place?.I mean it was my dream,right?  To get admitted to IBA. Why I recently had the feeling that it's an impossible task for me to make possible? I mean it's obviously not impossible, I can totally make it happen. I have the potential, just have to work on it. Because people get admitted to that place, it's not something you say impossible. Why did I aspire for something average, something like getting admission to any public university. If it were any versity, I would've already lost the interest. It has to be particular and it has to be IBA. I was freaked out by maths and all, but I shouldn't have. I don't have to be like- Einstein perfect in Math, I just have to be enough to get admitted into that dream place. SO I think it's time for me to get my hopes back on, and try for the best possible thing that could happen in my life, if I just go for it, work hard and become fierce in competition, not some "I'm applying but I know I wouldn't get in" phrase. I have to do something now, that in future I will thank myself for. Enough of this bullshit. Goodnight. What? I need to sleep like normal people. Because first task to my goal is to sleep like normal people, normal hours, normal eating and normal lifestyle. Then comes the hard working part. You can't work hard unless you're in a good shape. Uha. So BYE.

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