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I have been doing quite well. Both mentally and physically. I feel like myself again. Last night, I put on some great music and danced in my room. Of course, my husband was at work and he wasn't here to see me stupidly dancing. 

I used to do that before as a child/teenager. I remember, everyday when I felt gloomy, I would put my favourite music on my ipod and dance like nobody watching. I am glad, I feel like that child again. I am glad I have got through a very lonely and dark time and am present with myself again. 

My relationship with my husband has also significantly improved. I feel closer with him than ever. He has also shown some acts of service and taking care of me. The emotional disconnection I felt before has faded away. I feel like the luckiest woman alive when I am with him. 

I still don't have a job though. However, I am trying. A little bit everyday to improve myself. I guess I will find a job once I figure out what I want and where my passion lies. Seeking job cluelessly won't land me one. I am actually doing an online course on data analytics. It feels great to study after a long pause.

The weather is getting colder but I have my new winter boots my husband just bought me. Honestly, I am a bit excited to see snow for the first time!

I am in a more calmer state now. I see things with a much more clear head. I am thankful for everything that happened with me. It has given me more perspective and a fighter mentality. Whatever comes my way, I can deal with it. There is a saying that if God brings you to it, He will bring you through it. 

I am so grateful. 

Hope you are doing great as well!

Also loving the holiday season vibe here in Canada!


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