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My anxiety has taken havoc on my sleep and 

we both know what that does to my mood 

and everything basically. I feel like I am 

taken back to pandemic days where 

I literally had no motivation to do 

anything whatsoever. I felt terrible 

on those days honestly. 


However, I am trying to take 

control back of my life. 

Today, I will try to fix my sleep, 

do bit of yoga, and go out for shopping. 

You know how much I love shopping. 

This time, it would  be more so out of  

necessity cause I got to buy a few things 

before I move. 


Something weird happened  recently. 

I was going through a lane, I was on a 

rickshaw, suddenly I felt somebody just 

beat me on my leg, almost felt like it. 

It was  a sudden snap and  I was shocked. 

I couldn't make out who did it because 

my ride was ongoing and also I was zoned out 

in my own thoughts. However, when I felt it,

I screamed and everyone was looking at me confused. 

It did not register in my brain who did it to me. 

I am sort of shaken. For now, I guess I will avoid rickshaw rides. 


I intend to have a good productive day today. 


Thank you for reading. 


I hope to come here more often 

now that I have so much free time. 


I have always appreciated having you

as my confidante. 


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