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Men. 
I wish some man came to my life and could change the perspective I have for men. And the frustrations I have. I blame the marketing campaign i.e- valentines day. The romantic movies like Serendipity, You've got mail, The notebook. For shaping my mind into thinking, Men have to be that way. They have to sweep me off my feet, be all charming and cute and be obsessed with me. 
I had in fact no real connection. I had never been on a date with a man to come to this conclusion that they are frustrating. I had only made virtual connections that didn't last even for a month. I am stuck between what ifs. What if he really turned out to be a nice guy. Someone sweet if only I met him.
The man I thought I loved in real life, only made effort to say pick up lines. He started giving me attention only when I got a bit lady like, like Anjali in Kuch Kuch Hota Hain, or like Sanjana in Main Hoon Na. But as I said, these movies show false representation of reality. My story is somewhat like, even so I got attention, it didn't last. He is after another person now. And she is way prettier and sophisticated to compete. Not that I want to compete. I don't love him to be honest. I just liked the attention. So it is okay. I have tinder for that.

Some guy once said to me( probably someone I blocked online after a few chats hehe) 'You should be experiencing dating by now. I mean this age is all about that.' 
And I was like. It's not like I don't want to. I can't find the right man. And I have not met him yet. Who actually would appreciate me. Love me for me. With whom I will feel safe. 
Yes. Safe. This is so important to me. 
Maybe to hope for such things is a bit too much to ask the universe. But honestly...If I waited this long, I want to be successful at finding the right one. 
And I am trying to. 
So I don't know what luck has in store for me. Maybe four or five years later, I will read this post and smile. Or cry :v 
I don't want to stay single forever tho







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