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I need to do some de-stressing  because my body reacted on me today. I fainted in the university and it was such an embarrassing experience tbh.

Today morning, I had so little sleep and I had quiz and I didn't study the night before, I was gossiping with my cousins, and I didn't have sleep the night before that...I don't know for what, I cried all night that night, I was functionally depressed and because of my hormone pills I have been having a lot of mood swings and did a lot of crying lately.

I don't know maybe I was dehydrated today but I felt like my body was leaving me and I couldn't do anything about it. This is the first time I have ever felt like that...I was throwing up after. It was a disaster. But my friends took care of me and thank god I have them in my life.

So you know what. I won't try to overdo myself this semester, whatever happens happens. My finals are in two weeks and I had a quiz today, I have one presentation and a quiz tomorrow as well but I am just going to take it one by one, and I am going to forgive myself if I get lazy and lose a few points. I am only human.

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