The Breaking - Rupi Kaur (Milk and Honey)

what i miss most is how you loved me. but what i didn’t know was how you loved me had so
much to do with the person i was. it was a reflection of everything i gave to you. coming back to
me. how did i not see that. how. did i sit here soaking in the idea that no one else would love me
that way. when it was i that taught you. when it was i that showed you how to fill. the way i
needed to be filled. how cruel i was to myself. giving you credit for my warmth simply because
you had felt it. thinking it was you who gave me strength. wit. beauty. simply because you
recognized it. as if i was already not these things before i met you. as if i did not remain all these
once you left.
you leave
but you don’t stay gone
why do you do that
why do you
abandon the thing you want to keep
why do you linger
in a place you do not want to stay
why do you think it’s okay to do both
go and return all at once