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Read when you're 30.

Confession.

I always want everything to go my way. And my happiness are mostly materialistic. I don't lack substance. It's just that...I have odd obsessions toward houses, decor, gadgets and other worldly things. And I like being alone, because being alone means creativeness. Being alone means you can sort yourself out whenever your life is messy.

I'm kind of a control freak. I don't like people butting in my life and advise me how to be. But certain people don't understand that and so I like to take no action. I go for silent treatment. I bury every emotion I feel and just don't act at all. This is how I adjust.

Dear 30 year old me,

I am hoping you're able to read this while you don't have diabetics, BP or any other disease. I am hoping that you're alive and healthy and aren't ashamed of your body anymore. That you are a strong independent woman with good humor and also a flirt. If you're not any of these things, don't worry, I am not disappointed. Just be good at whatever you're doing. 

Oh by the way. I have an important question to ask...Are you still a virgin? I hope not!!

Anyway, just wanted to let you know, you're never too old to enjoy life. Write a book. Shop for your kids if you have kids. Hey, one important advice. Always be welcoming to the new generation. Always give them the liberty to do things differently than what you did. Never be an arrogant, conceited and boring old lady. Be youthful like you always were and be loving and fun to all your kids or even grandchildren. I hope you're not a grandma in your 30s. That would be too soon. So don't forget about sex education. Your child might be watching porn behind your back.

Are you happy with your life at this moment? Do you have any regrets? Of course you do.
Are you still scared of spiders and pregnant lizards? Have you traveled overseas? Do you love your job, or do you even have a job? Come on I am curious. Are you married tho? I mean, it's fine if you aren't. Are you into someone? Most importantly, have you got over your crushes?

Are you smart enough to entertain a bunch of people or you're still just shy? I am obviously hoping that you have grown some leadership qualities. And also that you are in America or far away from your home right now...Got to have some changes. You can't live here for 30 years, you always wanted to travel the world when you grow up. And you have grown up. You're 30. Go visit Santorini while you still have the energy and money. Go book a ticket!

Having wrinkles?  Becoming fat and unsexy? They're just part of life, accept it. Treat yourself like an angel. Be your own kind of beautiful and know that, aging is quite natural. Models you're seeing now, will also get old and have baggy stomach someday and that's how the world works. Nothing lasts forever.

Who am I kidding, you're just 30. No big deal. Think of all the good things you can do now what you couldn't do at 19. Like-


Going alone to places
Scolding youngsters
Shopping with your own money/your husband's money
No studying for exams(YAY!!)
Making babies
Raising tiny human(s)
Traveling

See life isn't so bad after all. I hope you're having fun being a grown up. <3

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