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Today I have to visit one of my aunts who came from Australia last night with her family. I'm psyched to meet her but also it's going to be awkward after this huge gap that taken place between me and her eldest kid.

So my cousin brother, who was a 7 year old maybe when they were in Dhaka and I don't know how the friendship happened. I was maybe 12/13? I forgot. Anyway, so he used to follow me around like a puppy, and I used to spend a lot of time with him playing because my mom used to go to that house frequently, most occasions. So yeah, I was forced to play with a kid. He used to hold my hand wherever I go, like that trip in Sunderban with his family, he was always clinging to me like I was his only friend. I can't blame him, he was a kid back then. But now that I think it through, what odd friendship it was! Then when he went to Australia, I kind of missed him and my aunt was added to facebook, so I used to see their pictures. He had a brother few years ago and now he's all grown up! And today I am gonna see him, it just feels so weird. What am I going to say to him? Would he remember his old play date? I don't know it's just fucking weird, I don't know him anymore. I didn't wanna go but my mother said they want to see me and if I don't go they will mind. I am just not that into it. Seeing people after a decade and pretending like we still have the bond is just so weird! 

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