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Omg you won't believe what just happened this morning.

I went to college...ok that's kind of believable, because I had to get some official papers done....anyway so meeting him (my man crush back in college days you remember don't you?) was something hard to believe. Because he was supposed to be busy with classes. He used to be always preoccupied, as far as I remember.

So when I was like peeking through the teacher's room window, I could only see teachers from science department. I was fine however, I didn't expect him to be there. But then after I came out from our head's office I found him walking in the hallway. Just a second, we glanced at each other and I was almost convinced that I wouldn't meet and greet, I thought it would be awkward, he probably wouldn't recognize me. But then I thought, "When will I be able to see him again? No I can't miss this chance, besides, he already knows I am here, it would be rude if I don't say anything." Yes I thought these things in a second, while we were staring at each other. I would have missed him, he was already taking a turn but then I approached, for the first time ever I spoke out loud and clear to him! The college days, I was always shy to speak with him but today!! I did it. I felt awesome!

Good morning Sir!
He then smiled, I noticed he wasn't wearing his glasses.
"Good morning. How are you? He asked oh-so-warmly. Like he knew me so well.
I said I was fine and asked after him. He was busy after all so that was it. We wrapped it up , he was on the way to the hall room then...I don't know if he recognized me tho, I mean maybe he did, just my face, not my name. I felt that because it's been a year already and it's normal if he didn't.

I was also my way to the main gate, walking in front of the basketball court, craving a hug. I mean, if this were America, we would have hugged each other. I mean I would be the one initiating the hug. It's just, when you see your loved one after a long time, it requires it. A hug to fix all the missing emotions. I missed him so bad. I missed his jokes and all the nice things he used to say in the class. I wish I could stay in the college longer but my brother had exam so he needed the car and I had to hurry. I left the college playing back our conversation like I did in the old times.

I know this sounds cheesy but I think fate brought him to me. Whenever I craved to see his face, he came right before me. Like literally.  He just crossed my path. Not I. I mean how's that even possible...Today I knew he would be busy, I wouldn't be able to meet him, but I was wanting for one glance to see how's he doing. And boom! It happened. Aww it just made my day. :)













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