happy little girl.

Guess what happened at the college farewell today?!
I took a picture with him. Oh my god, it's the first picture with him ever. I don't even care I didn't look my best at it, I am gonna keep it to myself. I wore saree today and it was so sweating heat outside that I got my make up messed up. And I am super exhausted right now walking all day in heels. But I just can't wipe that smile outta my face. He took a picture with me! I am gonna have wrinkles earlier my age, because I am doing my face-splitting grin every time I look at the picture.He's standing right beside me. I wish we could hold hands! Aww this would probably be the last one because I may never see him again after HSC. That's heart breaking.
So when we were like posing for the photo, some girl was interrupting to get in the picture and I kind of pushed her away from him so that it would be just the two of us.I was like "No! US FIRST!" And the girl was gone and I looked at him, he was kind of laughing at what I did. Then we were posing again.
Why this makes me so happy I don't know, it's just a photo. He ain't no celebrity. I just can't stop, my jaw hurts I am smiling like an idiot.

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