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confession#81

Guess what? Exams are over! :)) My life is back on track.

Now let me take care of the bucket list. Actually it's more of a to-do list.But I hate the sound of it.It brings out a boring vibe.So I decided to be it my bucket list for now.The thought is entertaining, no?

Okay so, the very first thing that I am gonna do is redecorate my room after my sister leaves the house. Okay. Before you give me the "You're selfish" look let me get this straight. I am definitely going to miss her.But I have accepted the fact that it's a part of growing up. And let's be honest, she's getting her fare share, a room AND a Husband. But hey,I just want her to be happy. No jealousy included.SO redecorating my room is a Big-Plan. And I'd start working on it after nanu leaves for America.And after things get normal up here when api leaves for her in-law's. Because if I tell my mom about this plan right away, she's gonna beat the ass out of me. Ammu's been so emotional lately. Even today morning, she shed tears while stuffing api's clothes at the closet. SO this isn't the right time to tell her what I have in my mind. Any way, moving on to the bucket list. Let me give you a brief of the room-redecorating plan.  

I want my room simple and cozy.So there has to be less of some big old furniture I have it in here. This computer table is going down. Do you have any idea how old this table is?!It's been sitting here since I popped out of my mom's womb. No kidding. I am taking this out to trash.I don't even care if my pc has to sit on the floor.This computer table is super ugly.   
And also I am gonna do something about this easy chair. Tell you what, this is actually a killer chair. It has this pointy sharp wood crack at the back which stings like a pin on the skin. Well,not a normal tinnie-tiny sting. It feels like a knife stab.Literally! So I am definitely going to get it fixed or send it out to trash. 

I am gonna buy a hot-pink fluffy mattress. I am gonna move the other single-bed out and I am thinking maybe a single couch with silk covered pillows.Something chic. But my mom won't allow something expensive so maybe I'll just get my old sofa back. It's big and not even fluffy.Whatever.
I am going to use the side table where kept the printer and stuffs as my little book shelf. I would want to read books before going back to bed so I think it's a good idea. And I am gonna organize my closet, make-ups. So the very bottom of the shelves is going to be a place for my shoes and high-heels. I am gonna arrange more hangers for the party-dresses. I wish I could change the pattern of my cabinet. It's too narrow for keeping clothes and stuffs.I profoundly hate it.

So as you can see I have a lot in my mind. There's gonna be change of plans and decors. Also I missed out on many parts which I've lost my patience writing it all out. I am mainly inspired by Bethany Mota's roomspiration. Her room looks absolutely fabulous. 
  
But the sad part is I am not so sure if I am gonna make it. I better hope nanu leaves for America with my uncle. She's been here for like four months now.And if she settles, I am not getting my room to myself. You see, it's completely out of my hands now. But who would stop me from planning and dreaming and pinning all day long those bedroom decors and stuffs on Pinterest? I am super excited!








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