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another year

 Dear B, 

2026 starts, we are already a month down. 

Life's been kind of passing by. 

I got a copper IUD recently. The procedure was quick but so painful. Now I'm okay. I still will have to be cautious. Here's to no more unplanned pregnancies!

My job has been kind of meh. I should look for new jobs now actually now that I have some experience. The pay is not worth it. Don't get me wrong though I am super grateful for having a job 5 days a week. It is just that I have to push myself for the better. My husband has been kind enough to pay all the bills and with my money I only can afford some shopping here and there and a bit of groceries. He is actually doing a lot I give him credit for. I am super grateful but I have to stop being so comfortable and stuck. 

Second time, I got assaulted by another homeless or I am not sure if he was actually a homeless. I was just crossing the road and my hands were occupied with grocery bags. This man just freaking punched me in my head. I've been anxious whenever I go out by myself now. I just don't know why I was punched though it wasn't too violent of a punch. However, I am just curious more than anything why they target me. Anyways. I am over it. I can't be scared all my life for this people. 

Yeah B, life has been just okay I guess. I am looking forward to my trip next month! I'm going home!

Oh also I am going to visit my sister next weekend. I booked a bus as my husband will be busy with work. I am also looking forward to see her. My friend had a baby daughter and I am also just gonna visit her. They invited me to their naming ceremony. So I am also very much looking forward to seeing her. 


Today is Sunday. My husband is scheduled to work, which sucks. I am stuck at home. 


I thought I would do something but I am getting lazy. 


Anyway, I will write to you soon. 


Also happy new year! I know I'm late but it's also just February :). 


I wish we both have a good year!




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