Everly

 Dear B,  I don't watch the news but there has been a lot of speculations on social media of a possible world war III. My sister just texted me that I should save up money as we don't know what that might do to the economy. It is ironic because I just ordered something online last night. Every time I go out, I spend. I don't even have a good paying job and I spend like I have full time. However, one thing I learned from my past is that there is no point in stressing about the future. What I have control over is now. I can either live in the moment or ruin it by ruminating and what good will it bring to my life? Living alone can get boring. However, I am trying to find things to do. Maybe I will visit a bookstore today. Lets see.  I have rearranged the furnitures yesterday. Cleaned as well. The place looks good.  Maybe I will go IKEA. I love it there. Even though I can't afford furnitures, I just enjoy looking at them. Oh what to tell you B. My in-laws are coming this...

 Dear B, I realized when I have nothing much to do that is when I miss my husband the most. That is when loneliness creeps in.  Today was one of those days. I tried doing yoga, watching shows, and cooking dinner. However, my mind keeps racing and I lose focus. The show keeps playing on the background and I do other things.  I did clean the refrigerator for the first time. Felt good after seeing a clean fridge.  I have work the next two days so at least I will keep busy those days.  I did meet few new people last week. It was nice actually meeting people my own age for a change.  Yeah, today, I honestly feel kinda meh.  Hope this time flies fast, I am counting down the days to reunite with my husband.   UGH

 Hi B,  I have been going through a lot of phases.  Living alone is certainly a challenge. I am discovering parts of me that I did not imagine has existed to me before. I found myself choosing new outfits and new colours. I am going to donate a bunch of my old clothes that I held into for a long time without reason. I feel really disgusted by the old self. It is like, I am shedding my skin and embracing the self that was hiding under it.  I gave the new friendship another chance and I feel better. We hung out last night and had good conversations. I am grateful that I found someone in this lonely city to talk about life with. Still it is very new so I don't want to put too much expectations. Adulting is hard itself and it won't be always possible to make time and effort for each other. I have accepted that and trying to be more understanding through the process.  My husband and I don't get to talk much as he is working really hard and busy with the new work situ...