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I stormed out of home yesterday around evening time, got in an ugly fight with my parents. 
Basically, I am getting my puberty driven repulsiveness and rebel like attitude at the age of 24. As much as it hurts to say this, I told them to reject the identity of me being their daughter and I also said (out of rage) that I don't count them as my parents anymore. My father is no longer talking with me, when I am spoken to, he is rather passive aggressive with me.

Hear me out, I have no intention to hurt them as much they intend to hurt me, or even identify their actions as 'hurtful' or even empathize toward the fact that- I am hurting being isolated from my friends/cousins, the fact that I have no social life. Their main concern is- NOT just the virus, but the fact that I may date a guy or meet a guy and do stuff- and frankly, I am not in the mood for dating now. Even if I do meet a guy- What is the harm? Why are they against me having a 'life'?

Why this people's opinion in the society means so much to them, when in all honesty, I should come first- my opinions, my matters should come first as I am their daughter. I was so hurt by the accusations my mom made toward me. I can't change their mentality or make them open minded people. But I expected the least- which was for them to allow me to let me meet my cousins/friends. When they know this will make me happy- they don't care the least about my happiness or mental health. They want their own way. For them to showcase to people how perfect our family is. Whereas it is utterly dysfunctional. And I am more and more trying to get myself unattached from this. 

I want to live away from this hurtful environment.


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