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Dear B,

I am self-quarantined at home, my university is closed due to corona pandemic. And the panic that is among the internet, is indescribable. I feel for Italy, I really do. Do you remember I was so indulged in the book Eat, Pray, Love, and almost wanted to learn Italian. Traveling there is one of the top things I wanna check off my bucket list. I hope the country recovers from this serious situation. Hoping everything to come back to normal seems too delusional right now, but you know there's this thing with the earth. It faces destruction, then molds. Look at our history of the earth. It still survived pretty big things. Maybe we can survive this. It is a pretty scary time. Especially for the older people. The more I think about it, it gives me anxiety.

Let's look closer to my current mental state and the life. This year has been pretty happening for me... I went out of my comfort zone. Met a guy, had couple of  meetups I wouldn't call them dates, cause we are nothing. I mean, I am still figuring things out what I want. It is complicated. He doesn't want anything serious, that I can tell. Me too. I just needed to know how it feels to hold hands, to kiss....yeah let's not overshare. But your girl had her first kiss, and she is not a kid anymore! Okay I thought I owe this information to this blog because I had been sharing some really important aspects of my life here for years and I wanted to post this. This is very childish I know but everything is so new for me now and I feel like a different person, and I wanted to share that.

Anyway, my last semester is going kind of hazy, mainly because I was hardly focused. I can't believe, in couple of months, I am gonna have to apply for jobs. It is crazy how time is moving so fast. I just hope I land a good job and be able to take care of my family and possibly travel the world. The world needs saving before that. I hope situation gets under control.

That's all I can do now. Hope for the best.

 xoxo

 I missed this. Glad I came back to write something. :)

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