Dear B,
Things have turned weird...My mind is in conflicting terms. A part of me wants to tell him how I feel. How my blood runs high when I see his message pop up in my phone screen. How my heart sinks seeing him offline. How I die being called "bro." The other part of me, however, wants everything to be the way it is. Feel pathetic and never tell him about it. Call him bro, get even. But never pray tell how I feel inside.
I want to stop thinking about him. It is not love. It is an obsession, a dependency, an addiction.
He has to die, or go away, or just be forgotten. Or what are the choices I have?
I can't force a feeling. He doesn't like me that way, I mean that's what the signs tell me.
I really want to avoid feelings. I really do. But the fact that I think about him nonstop ain't helping. He's in the music I listen to, he's in the lyrics, He's in the movie I watch, He's in the dream I get woken up to, He's in the poem I am mentally creating just now. He's in the ....He's basically everywhere.
Where does it take me? Where does it end?
I need someone, don't I? How is that gonna happen? How is he gonna magically disappear from my mind? Tell me, am I ever gonna wake up without the thought of him jamming in my head endlessly until I fall asleep again?
Tell me is it possible to forget how I feel about him? Is there any possibility, he would never ever have an impact on me?
I don't wanna see his face. He has made me miserable. The fact that he is so charming sometimes, kills me. Why can't I unlike him? Why can't I just unlike him?
Things have turned weird...My mind is in conflicting terms. A part of me wants to tell him how I feel. How my blood runs high when I see his message pop up in my phone screen. How my heart sinks seeing him offline. How I die being called "bro." The other part of me, however, wants everything to be the way it is. Feel pathetic and never tell him about it. Call him bro, get even. But never pray tell how I feel inside.
I want to stop thinking about him. It is not love. It is an obsession, a dependency, an addiction.
He has to die, or go away, or just be forgotten. Or what are the choices I have?
I can't force a feeling. He doesn't like me that way, I mean that's what the signs tell me.
I really want to avoid feelings. I really do. But the fact that I think about him nonstop ain't helping. He's in the music I listen to, he's in the lyrics, He's in the movie I watch, He's in the dream I get woken up to, He's in the poem I am mentally creating just now. He's in the ....He's basically everywhere.
Where does it take me? Where does it end?
I need someone, don't I? How is that gonna happen? How is he gonna magically disappear from my mind? Tell me, am I ever gonna wake up without the thought of him jamming in my head endlessly until I fall asleep again?
Tell me is it possible to forget how I feel about him? Is there any possibility, he would never ever have an impact on me?
I don't wanna see his face. He has made me miserable. The fact that he is so charming sometimes, kills me. Why can't I unlike him? Why can't I just unlike him?
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