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Api.

 you're so bitchy and bossy but I love you anyway.I love that you're stupidly kind of funny.I love how you're such a cheese. I like it, in fact I love it when you appreciate me the way I am. so it's been a happy-go-lucky situation, being your baby sister and knowing that you'll always stand by my side,no matter what.And that I can learn from your mistakes because you're such a silly-sally princess. 
you know you don't have to be so cranky as you're turning a year older today.Age is just a number. Besides, the more you'll grow, the more beautiful you'd be.I find the prettiest in you.Your chickeny legs, that beautiful pair of eyes, and the shopping spirit of yours, I've always been jealous of these things about you.
   
Nobody knows you better than I do, do they? Because I know your behind the scenes stories. I know your little big secrets. And I know that you've got a heart made of gold.

If there's anyone I can fully be retarded with, it'd be you.
you're my chuddy-buddy. my sleeping pillow. my partner in crime, my favorite cook,my forever friend, my laughter, my joy.You're my person.

And sometimes you are slightly irritating, and I hate it when you scream. Do you think that's cute? you screaming,"hey, where did my t-shirt go? that pink one...!I can't find it!?...how's my hair looking, is it bad, is it good? is it ugly? or is it better than before?..... hey will you smell my perfume? can you smell it ? is it extreme? tell me,is it? is it?....."

It's your birthday, I don't wanna ruin it for you. I just wanna let you know that, I'm gonna miss all these pretty little things when you're away. I know that very well.
I wish the best for you, may you get all the things you dream of, and lots , lots , lots of love.  

Happy Birthday Api!! 

 I love you to the moon & back, to infinity and beyond forever and ever.
Just in case you forgot, I'm always here for you. 
xoxoxo
_your baby sis who loves you tons


 

 

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