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day 91

Felt  a bit feverish yesterday. My parents were worried sick. I am okay now, but I feel kind of lathergic. I stayed home all this time, I don't see a point in getting infected. It would be so ironic.

My final semester's results were published. All I am left with now is the internship. I can't believe I almost finished my undergrad. Time moves fast.

I kind of took a break from the routine. I wake up a bit late but sleep well at night.

I am taking an out of sight, out of mind approach with him. I kind of restricted his feed on my social media, the less I see of him, the less I think about him. I hope I stay persistent on this techniic, I kind of cheated yesterday, took a peek after like a week of break but yeah from today, I am gonna be strict.

Yesterday, a celebrity I loved and adored, hung himself at his flat...He was very successful. And this is the lesson here. We think that success defines mental serenity or satisfaction, it actually doesn't. You can have everything you want, you can still be unhappy. One of his interviews, he said and I paraphrase- I have everything that I once thought would make me content, a car, a house, all those dreams I had when I was a boy, right now afford it, but it's like 95 percent boredom and 5 percent of excitement with all those things. You just have it and then you're done, you move to the next thing. What's next, what's next.

He was so talented. I felt really gloomy after seeing the news. The lesson is, stay in the moment. Embrace the present, not the future, the process, not the outcomes.

I hope I come out of this quarantine with wisdom and practicality.

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