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I know I've been telling myself to stay away from drama but I guess I couldn't help being caught up.
SO here is what is going on...
Singer Guy might have a crush on Makeup girl but Makeup Girl is dating someone so Singer guy might WAIT until they break up So he could date her. And the twist is- Makeup Girl's boyfriend lives out of country. SO there's like a big chance of their breakup. I did anticipate this. That they might like each other a bit but I can't imagine them dating. You see. It is ....I just can't see him getting close to her. I don't know how me and turtle dove are gonna handle this but we already despise the idea. It is all a prediction though. But I know his preference. He prefers pretty girl. Girl he can show off and the type of girl who will make every guy jealous. Makeup Girl is hot. And smart af. So I don't blame him if he ends up asking her out. But....This feels all wrong.

Today he asked me if I like somebody. And....I told him I like this guy in my Business class. Even though I have no feelings toward that guy. I just told him that to avoid spilling out the truth. He told me he would keep it a secret. I was smiling inside. He doesn't have a clue?! Really? I don't know. I felt like it is not the right time to ruin everything. So I kept my mouth shut.

I can't escape the thought of him. The min I entered my home I started missing him. I hate it. I loathe myself for falling this much. For completely ignoring my self-worth.







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