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noun 1. the occurrence and development of events by chance in a happy or beneficial way. "a fortunate stroke of serendipity" synonyms: chance , happy chance,  accident , happy accident,  fluke ;  God has a unique way to surprise us. A unique beautiful way. You know, the more i'm growing, i'm learning that; when you crave for something to happen and when it happens, you just can't get any happier. But when good things happen by chance, and surprise you like crazy, i think that's the awesome feeling you get. because it's beyond your expectations, it's shocking yet satisfactory. i don't know i guess i'd love to fall in this type of sweet accident. :')  “It's a bizarre but wonderful feeling, to arrive dead   center  of a target you didn't even know you were aiming for.”   ―  Lois McMaster Bujold so i would rather let the path guiding me to get a new path.  It's not that i'm completely r...

I got this feeling, you know, after watching Nicholas Sparks movies, it's like, "Omg I'm gonna die alone!"  So today, I watched "Dear John". Incredible. SO Romantic! Just loved the movie. I'm so freaking crushed on Channing Tatum,he's amazing! Made me depressed as well. Because girls like me ain't getting any guys like that, even in a lifetime. He's so freaking hot! God! why i always fall for celebs. They'll never be mine :( Oh i need a shoulder to cry on. Wish i could just cry on Tatum's sexy neck ;( Ahh like that's gonna happen ! :'( You know what! Waiting for your love of life-- that thing sucks! It's so hard, so unpredictable. I'm seventeen, girls on my age --uh i shouldn't say it all. but hey sometimes, i feel so insecure and depressed about being myself. I mean when i see those pretty girls, they get what they want, and they are always rewarded even when they screw up...sometimes i just can't f...

Today i had an orientation arranged by Prothom Alo because of my SSC (GPA5) Result.Well, what can i say? it was so stressful but yes we were also sting by awesome fun. Ahh what a day! I'm so freaking tired right now. The day was started with my mom screaming out loud in the morning (as usual) then i woke up,ugh it was so hard for me, because last night i was drugged by F.R.I.E.N.D.S series dvd on my pc. i got it from my friend ANN. Oh god i couldn't even just take rest i was watching back to back episodes with my sis for like 8 freaking hours. So i was late to get to bed and ended up late in the bus station to Chin Moitree. My friends got into the buses already then. ghosh! i get to be the loner again! but fortunately i got one of friends to sit next to me in the bus so i was relieved. But in the middle of that, the scenario was oh god, my parents and i were screaming like bitches! you know, the arguing stuffs and whatsoever. ugh Just forget it.  So, i got the bus,i got...

Stay Happy. Stay satisfied. Stay cool.  These are easy to say, and tough to be. I really can't remember, the last time when i was fully happy, or smiling or laughing like crazy. I mean seriously, did i stop for a moment and looked back to see how i was holding up with my life? Did i take a moment to feel what i was actually feeling? No. Some how i just skipped the emotional part and continued with the practical. Some how being happy became the least thing i wanted to have in my way towards life. But is it that simple? Leading life without preferring yourself a bit? I think that we all should just stop jostling and getting lost in this worldly life. Just take a moment, see what you've been through and appreciate what you've got. Good or Bad. Wishing and Dreaming- these two are unlimited. Dreaming is good. But sometimes we dream so much that we forget the reality. Then it comes- Depression. Sadness of not getting what we fantasized of. But because of the ugly realit...

The word inspiration reminds of my cool Daddy. From the very childhood days to this critical stage of my teen age life i would just go without saying that he's been my one and only inspiration. There's no such famous writers or celebrities or anyone that i can really admire more than i admire my father. He's such a blessing for me. He's so precious, so sophisticated, so updated and so simple. His simplicity amazes me. His way of taking things seriously,his concerning behavior, his amazing personality...he's one hell of a unique person that i would never be able to find in other guys. I want him to live to the infinity. I love him so much!  For the discouraged, disheartened and broken people, Inspiration paves the day. It makes us strong enough to face situations, it helps us to see things in a different point of view, it gives us a new bright light, it guides us, it is something we all need eventually. When i get down, i get up, how? by getting inspired. I mea...

I'm feeling like something is going wrong, something is missing. Emptiness. Whenever I'm trying hard to concentrate on my life,my mind is getting lost. It's not working the way it should. I'm now fed up. Fed up of being separated from the world. I'm often staying depressed, sleeping it off and having nightmares. This whole thing sucks. The problem is, i don't know what my problem is.  If i would, then may be i could. So what now? i have exams at college almost everyday a week, and it's really making me stressed to solve my own problems. I have so many things going on, I have so much things to get done but here i am. Master of doing nothing. I thought doing nothing would make me feel better.But no! it's just making it worse.  I had a nightmare today. It was horrible. Then i realized actually i have a fear. fear of losing someone reallyyyyy close. My Dad. I can't lose him. I need him. But it's not like he's sick or something. he's he...

“To me, Fearless is not the absense of fear. It's not being completely unafraid. To me, Fearless is having fears. Fearless is having doubts. Lots of them. To me, Fearless is living in spite of those things that scare you to death.” -Taylor Swift     The things that still scare the hell outta me, are cockroach and spiders. Many find it cute, but when I jump out seeing those yucky creatures chasing toward me, it surely doesn't feel cute to me. All the screaming and "I can not live under the same roof with these" feeling...ugh. I guess I'll never gonna be able to overcome these fears.Ever! I find it very interesting- Taking risks. May be because of me being a business student.But seriously, those things that make storms in your nervous system, get your blood racing or make your heart beat like drums are probably worth of doing. These are the things that actually makes it all exciting, worthy of at least a try.  “Being FEARLESS isn't being...

Todo para la familia . It’s one of my favorite Spanish quotes which means- Everything for family. I always try to maintain that fact, but sometimes when I have to choose between my family and friends I seem to be on the horns of a dilemma. But the end of the day, always, I decide to be with my family. No matter what, family will always be there for you. There is nothing worth than family support. Friends are also important but it can’t compete with blood relations. So certainly, family is something you can completely rely on with your eyes closed. I always consider myself lucky that I belong to a decent, yet an awesome family. I feel proud to be a part of it. “When everything goes to hell, the people who stand by you  without flinching -- they are your family. ”  ―  Jim Butcher So this Eid, I had spent my entire day with my siblings, cousins and mom, dad, grandpa, uncle, aunty. I felt so good and secure with them. I spent hours and hours having goss...

Dexter- tv series presented by Showtime is my most favorite tv shows of all time. I'm obsessed with it. I admit It's really a mind blowing drama series and so addictive!  The acting of the two main characters of this series :  Michael C.Hall & Jennifer Carpenter(  Dexter Morgan & Debra Morgan) just magnificent. They are so professional. Have no idea how they act so perfectly on Dexter. Seriously! Hats off to them. I started Season 8(1-5) episodes watched. Every new episode is a new thrilling story, i get overwhelmed every time i watch each episodes. So wonderfully done. So realistic !      Recently I've downloaded season 5 because i slipped out some of the episodes and freaking out watching them.  So about Dexter. He is basically a blood spatter pattern analyst, a lab geek ; works for Miami Metro Police Department who also leads a secret life as a serial killer. He is a very neat monster. He kills bad people and is an expert of hid...

“Some day you will be old enough to start reading fairy tales again.”   ―  C.S. Lewis Growing up-Growing old,kinda same words but sounds little different. Sounds boring to me. But i just can't help it. I'm growing up since i was in my mom's body. It's the universal story of life. You gotta grow up eventually and life's gonna end too. But this gap between your growing up and "going up" -this gonna be yours truly. you gotta figure out how're you gonna lead that time of your own. Oh Please! I'm not giving any piece of advice,I'm just writing some crappy words to pass my spare time...:P So where was I...Yeah about Growing-Up : “Growing up is losing some illusions, in order to acquire others.”  ―  Virginia Woolf When I was a little kid i always wanted to grow up quickly. I used to think that if i grow up fast, i would get all those freedoms i wished for,do anything i want,have my own kid,scold them,tease them,drive my own car,have...