Everly

 Dear B, The trip is happening! I got the visa and I am so excited to meet my husband after like 4 months! Everything worked out at the end. We are good now. I can't believe I stressed myself so much for this. I still don't want to be too excited. I will take one day at a time.  Life is good overall. Time is moving slow now as I am just only thinking about the trip right now haha.  My work has shifted me to nearby location so that I am close to home effective from next month, which has been a blessing really.  Yeah, I am actually very grateful. 

 Dear B, I am writing to you with a heavy heart and eyes full of tears. This last 3 days I went through the 5 stages of grief all together.  The trip I was looking forward to with my husband is probably not happening because I am faced with technical issues to submit the visa on the website. I am at a dead's end. Everything I tried is failing. All this uncertainty is causing havoc on my mental health and my relationship. Last night, I had an argument with my husband. He said some things that made me feel so small. I am not mad at him. I am just disappointed. I guess I said some things too.  I guess what hurts the most is I was so excited to see him this September. I was counting on days. Planning on outfits to wear. He planned a whole travel itinerary. For the first time, I was feeling really taken care of.  Things don't always go according to plan. It is okay. That's the beauty of planning. You can change it. For now, the plan is if the trip does not happen, I will ...